insomnus

I will keep this short as I am running on empty at this time. Last night I did not sleep at all causing me to ring in sick today. My anxiety is being fuelled by a number of things at this time, but I have been like this before and know what to expect. The lack of sleep is demoralising but I should be used to it. I have the results through tomorrow and see the doc at pm. I almost expect for them to say all clear as they did last time as 'Blood Traces' are ok???? My anxiety is so high that I have also cancelled my blow tonight which in turns makes me angry and fuels the stress even more. All that caused this was a retest on myself yesterday which threw up a higher result than last time, this in turn triggered the stress? I should have know better and blame myself for this as should have left well alone. I will beat all these feelings but it just takes time. Excuse me if I do not post for a while.