So last night I had a whopping 5 hours sleep. I decided at 5.30am that I was going to go on a 2-3 mile walk whatever the weather. I did and as always exercises is the answer. Although on my help web site I recommend this, it is not always easy when you haven't slept for a while. your body and mind is screaming for rest so it is the last thing you feel you need to do...only it is the first thing you should do. Tonight's show call went great and really enjoyed it it is always the same, come the middle of the week i want it to go on forever. Once I realise I am not going to make a complete prat of myself, it all comes together. Now if only I could accept this at the start of show week? I have just received the pad for the next show I am doing, but I can't be ar*ed to look at it until I have finished this one. Again it is one I have not done before. Actually it shows you how inexperienced I am when the Bass player of the show says he did 14 shows last year!!!! Wow how can you not fail to get into the groove when you do that many?
Whatever happens, i would not change a thing no matter how bad I get. It has to be fought and although I may not win, I will not let it, beat me.
I cant believe that a year has passed since I lost someone I can only describe as my second Father. I tell people at Funerals that time heals. Unfortunately the healing process can take a long long time. He was a very very good man and I miss him dearly and I would give anything to get him back for my partner.
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