Change is as good as..

There is no doubt in my mind that I am a complex character. Regarding Trombone playing I have always regarded myself as an average player. It was therefore a hard decision to bring in another lead player for the Tuesday Band, as I could not find a permanent 3rd bone player to keep the section going after ours left.. I also knew that the new guy played phenomenal jazz and I could not follow him in that respect. Audiences who pay money certainly deserve the best and last night they got it. So much so ,that I was aware that I can never take the lead seat again in that Band and a dep of equal talent has to be found to keep that superb continuity. Now some folk might think that I am being mardy, but I am being totally honest with myself. The Big Band audiences ain't daft and the thought of them clapping out of polite sympathy regarding a cavernous gaps between standards is awful? I always listen to my instincts and try and follow them wherever possible. I suppose I can be considered as a bit of a 'Nanny'. I looked after the Sunday night Band from a toddler to adult hood and changed roles when my instinct told me I had done enough. Comparatively in the Tue night Band I have gone as far as I can and have known that for a while. I still love playing, but also I am a frustrated player. I practice every day but if I live to 100 I will never be able to play like the new guy. This is just another learning curve and I am not too proud to know my place in life. I love music and will always love music. Just another day with different scenery?