Sunday, 19 April 2009

Though your heart is aching

4 months ago I gave up fronting the most successful Band in the Midlands. I am still being asked when I am going back onto the 'mic'. I am not ,as it really is over. I try and give everything 110% (is that possible) and for over 12 years that's what I did. Before this I felt their was no one capable to hand over to. But 2 years ago I started talking to a superb musician who was made for the role He is now in charge and doing an excellent job. My old mate in the Band said that he can't get used to me smiling when I walk into the room these days. Ok, it is hard at first to sit within the Band, but it is getting easier and the smile is getting slightly wider. I have to say though that my life is a roller coaster of a ride and although the smile may be false at times to hide the demons, it is real good at the moment
Now how did I play tonight. Well, most of my solo's came in the second half. Fairly high bits in Night Train and The Touch of your Lips. I would say mediocre. However I have asked for a mic now ,as the new mouthpiece demands that I do not have to force the high notes. This is taking some getting used to and I have to give the piece of metal at least 6 months before I know if I have made a mistake or got it right?
Its all technical stuff with the majority being in the head? Brain says, high note coming. Mouth and lungs prepare in advance. After that anything could happen lol.
I really am not looking forward to going to work tomorrow and sometimes I feel I could get in the car and keep driving. But I have responsibilities and a self discipline that wont allow this. Yet.
Ever seen the film 10? There are parts in that I can really relate to.
So another week and fresh challenges. Bring it on.....

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